To know and understand the natural horse, we better know, understand and accept ourselves --as well as others!
South Central Pennsylvannia
near Chambersburg, Pa.
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I had a very well bred filly --'Bella' that I bred for the reacetrack when I thought THAT was a direction for myself. That changed with the more I learned about what goes on in that 'business'. I started her when I was on the 60 acre farm in York County, but decided to leave there due to misrepresentation and what I now recognize as a psychopath who does whatever for themselves --ONLY!
I was at another location or two that did not offer me the way to continue working with her. No room to gallop her.
The day came when I 'heard the words' 'PAT DAY". Why hear that name? A few days after I heard it again --"Pat Day". I thought =WHO IS PAT DAY? I heard it a third time so I knew it was very important. "PAT DAY". WHO --WHAT and WHY do I hear that???
One day I turned on the TV to watch the Preakness.
WHO WON--? PAT DAY!
And when being interviewed, he was asked: With so many previous substance abuse issues, Pat --HOW DID YOU RECOVER TO WIN THE PREAKNESS? [something like that]
PATt DAY then said: "I owe it all to my Lord and Savior --JESUS CHRIST"
I was NUMBED!
I could hardle believe this! WHY did I hear his name three times? Was God telling me to give My Bella to PAT DAY? WHY?
Should I have even asked?
Somehow, I just could not bring myself to even try to do this. I would wait! Well, not too long after this, Bella got colic --really bad. I called the vet who told me she would need an operation because she had a twisted gut! NO WAY did I have money to do this. The vet tranqulized her hoping she would somehow recover.
She seemed quiet as I stood outside of her stall --just watching and hoping.
THEN, as if a gigantic FLY SWATTER HIT HER FROM HER RIGHT SIDE, she was SLAMMED TO THE GROUND __TO HER LEFT! IF I were at her side --I would have been trapped UNDER HER. Somehow I survived. BUT BELLA WAS DEAD as soon as she hit the ground! BAM!
I SCREAMED! NOOO but SHE WAS GONE -in a flash moment!
So, I learned that when GOD SPEAKS --I LISTEN!
I was told to leave the horses --to document my program, in 2000.
I DID JUST THAT --in TOTAL TRUST that my God would guide me.
I KNEW that if I died they would have to go to 'PEOPLE COLLEGE' to find out how 'THE OTHERS ARE! Never to be like our family has been. I had to leave them, and the strange day came when they were all standing in the indoor arena --just watching me. I didn't realize it at that time for MY heart was saying good-bye to them for the last time.
Later I KNEW --THEY ALSO KNEW. --They understood what was happening and they were giving me permission to follow God's lead.
That still brings tears to me. They KNEW!
I KNOW THAT THEY KNEW!
We had that kind of relationship as a family!
Would I have the TRUST and STAMINA to start documenting
--AGAINST ALL ODDS, as I heard in 1995, when a friend asked me what my intentions were. I HEARD those words --going through my head --from EAR TO EAR --like a soft swift WIND --"AGAINST ALL ODDS"!
I had no idea what would be happening beyond that. But after God showed me what he might do --IF I didn't LISTEN and OBEY, I decided to follow through --even against all odds --as I was told.
THAT STORY involves homelessness, living in a woods for 3-4 months, meeting other PSYCHOPATHS --that tried to do me in, and that even included an old friend who wanted to see me along the road --with NOTHING! Unbelievable what she tried to do to me. I was at her place for only 4 months, and I can say that I ESCAPED her viciousness. It was like seeing TWO or three seperate people --acting out for different reasons. I later realized that she was a D.I.D =Multi-Personality. Now I knew why her deceased husband didn't have much to do or say to her. HE KNEW --before he died!
I recognized this behavior from working with a woman who had 14 personalities from the Mental Health Dept. My EX-FRIEND was later sent to the Psychiatric Hospital in Towson Maryland. Have I visited her --NO!
I've learned so much through all that God has shown me with the life-experiences he has put me through. WAY MORE than can be told here.
I HAVE LEARNED: I LISTEN, and do as I am being told --also and STILL --'AGAINST ALL ODDS!'
The story will be told with and by: Rose at the Barn or in book form
--when directed to do do. FIRST THINGS FIRST!